Seeking God

      "Every time our hears turn from darkness to light." - God calls us to repentance. "Every time the gospel stirs a searching soul." - when you seek God, the gospel will move your heart. If you seek God, you will find Him."Ask, and you shall receive. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and the door will be opened for you" (Mathew 7:7-8)
        In Deuteronomy, God writes, "But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and soul. When you are in distress and all those things have happened to you, then in later days you will return to the Lord your God and obey Him [loving obedience]" (Deuteronomy 4:29-30) In Jeremiah, God writes, "Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will hear you [heal you]. You will seek me, and find me when you seek me with all of your heart" (Jeremiah 29:12-13). God's glory is like a fire, a torch, blazing in the night sky. God's Love endures forever. What does it mean to seek God? It means to try to talk with Him every morning and every night. At night, lay outside on the grass or on your deck if you're too afraid, and gaze at the stars and just pour out your soul, knowing God will hear. Smoke ganja: it will help you love yourself, force you to be honest even if you're embarrassed, and make you want to talk with God. When you are searching, be gentle and kind to everyone you see. Don't even call yourself agnostic.
                  Allow your soul to absorb some belief - some Christian thoughts. Why don't you believe? Think about it for a while. Wonder and ponder. If you can't find God yourself, God will find you and cherish you: cherish means love, cherish means He will keep you, cherish means He will never give up on you. Yahweh wrote, "The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul that seeks Him" (Lamentations 3:25). Once, someone told me it's bad to be a seeker. That's a big fat lie. God wants us to seek Him, even after we've found Him. I want to know His face, I want to know more about Him. Fear Him a little bit, with wonder and awe, and remember: perfect love casts out all fear. Be gentle and kind like I said before, and cherish all your friends and family. Hold the ones you love close to your heart.
         While you seek God, try to have faith in Jesus. Jesus will help you find His Father, Yahweh, and the Holy Spirit. You need all three of them, and all three of them are One. You don't have to understand - no one really does. We're all a little lost, but when we're lost, that's when God finds us.
      Bible reading: read Mark chapter 16. Mark 16:17-18 says Jesus gives us power from His Father to silence demons and make them leave, to heal the sick, to speak in tongues (have secret languages, like elvish, archangel, and faerie). He promise that no poison can ever hurt us. God is good. He doesn't hate "seekers". If you don't know Jesus, seek Him.
     In Job, God writes, "If you return to the Almighty you will be built up; if you remove injustice far from your tents, if you lay gold in the dust, and gold of Ophir among the stones of the torrent-bed, then the Almighty will be your gold and your precious silver. For then you will delight yourself in the Almighty and lift up your face to God" (Job 22:23-26). God wants us to repent and turn to Him. Repenting in Jesus's Name is part of searching for God. Wake up every morning and thank God for waking you up. Whenever you slip and have a bad thought (that's usually not yours), or hurt a neighbor, or curse someone, repent, and turn away from your mistakes. It's okay to not be okay. It's okay to hurt sometimes. When you are hurting, that's exactly when you will find God.
         YOU ARE NOT WICKED. The wicked refuse to seek God, and they slander God. If you've got this far, it means some part of you is open to hearing the Word of God. Jesus is the Word of God. God is Love. He never fails. No demon can ever force God to be "evil". In fact, Jesus wants to get rid of all evil, so everyone is almost-perfectly good, so there is no need for a government. No demons, no psych wards, no jails, no presidents or dictators who make abusive laws. No hurting. True freedom. God wants you to have all of this: He made the universe for us. There are MANY inhabitable planets, and I've been to them. Jesus only came to Earth, so those planets are still in the dark ages. God wants you to be happy. He wants you to be comfortable - not comfortable in your sin, but comfortable in God's promise of eternal life and of His eternal love and grace.
         What does grace mean, though? You might be asking. It means free, unearned favor of God, given to you. It means He forgives all sin, even blasphemy, because usually demons FORCE you to blaspheme. Also, you might not understand Who He is, and His goodness, and blaspheme to a being that doesn't exist. God is good: who would blaspheme about a God they know is Perfectly Good, who loves and cherishes and treasures them? No one. So God forgives. So don't worry: if you can't find God, He will find you, and you will meet Face-to face. Hell is real, but you can get out. NO ONE is permanently dammed, because God gives His Grace (unmerited love and favor) to everyone. Jesus died once for all - He defeated death on the cross - so God forgives, and no one dies. God is a good God. Why does hell exist, then? You might be asking. It exists because there are truly evil beings in the world, and being without Jesus corrupts people and makes them evil. Hell is for nonbelievers, and once you become a believer, God carries you to a house, hospital, group home, monastery, or back to your house on Earth.
      So make an effort to seek God. He won't punish you for seeking Him. Just be you, and speak to Him. Close your eyes and put your hands together (however you want. Your fingers can be entwined, one hand can be a fist with a hand over it - refusing to accept power like Aragorn did in LOTR -, or just together like a clap.) and close your eyes and pray: "Dear Lord Jesus, Yahweh, and the Holy Spirit, please help me find you. Please help me love you and obey you. Please help me with my disbelief. Encourage me to keep seeking You. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen." Try it. It can't hurt. "Amen" means "God's Will be done, so be it", not "goodbye". Try to pray every day - in fact, try to be constantly in prayer. Sometimes you can just close your eyes and put your hands together and sit in the silence, listening. Your soul will pray, and God will hear you and answer. He knows what's on your heart and mind and soul before you even pray, but pray anyways. Love yourself.

Thats all for now. I might make another blog post called "Seeking God: part 2" later. Love,
Rebecca :) <3