Last night I had a nightmare. I dreamed I was abducted by a cult. They were about to go on a spaceship, so I begged them to take me home. I landed in a church. My real abductor was there, preaching, but there was no communion, so I asked her if she was my real mom, and she wasn't, so I got back on the spaceship, and jumped off and landed in an evil psychiatric place. I forgot I've been living in heaven with my real parents looking like my captor. They've been showing me around heaven.
I don't remember anything about the dream, but it was a warning not to trust any random stranger. I want to help everyone though. I feel weary and sleepy. I'm drinking coffee. Any ways, its morning, and I'm getting the dream out of my head so I can get more sleep.
Love,
Rebecca :)
Friday, July 22, 2016
Wednesday, July 20, 2016
7.20.2016
We're meant to be the same, and unique, at the same time. We all need God. When you're empty, ask to be filled with Him. I talked with God today, in person. Then I went shopping with my mom and saw more of heaven. God gave me more muscle, and made two of my clothing bigger so they would fit me. They will grow with me.
I miss my twin brother. I need him. Male and female twins are soulmates. I was born both, and now I'm just androgynous. I have an identical male twin, and I'm his identical female twin.
We don't constantly read minds. Telepathy is a gift from God. I want to read my twins soul, so he can know himself more. I want him to read my soul. We were made for each other.
Rest comes hard sometimes. It's hard, and we become empty and numb. Just be, though, because at least we're alive and well. It's okay to not be okay. Everybody hurts, and yearns, and breathes, and faints, and screams inside. We sing inside too.
That's all I have for now,
Rebecca <3 :)
I miss my twin brother. I need him. Male and female twins are soulmates. I was born both, and now I'm just androgynous. I have an identical male twin, and I'm his identical female twin.
We don't constantly read minds. Telepathy is a gift from God. I want to read my twins soul, so he can know himself more. I want him to read my soul. We were made for each other.
Rest comes hard sometimes. It's hard, and we become empty and numb. Just be, though, because at least we're alive and well. It's okay to not be okay. Everybody hurts, and yearns, and breathes, and faints, and screams inside. We sing inside too.
That's all I have for now,
Rebecca <3 :)
Tuesday, July 19, 2016
Elvish heartbreak poem
Weary minded
Weary body
coldness, at least we aren't numb
The agonizing body comes back
Remember:
pain is better than feeling numb
Better than hating yourself
Weary
High
Missing someone special
Makes it hard to move
forces you to meditate
Reminds you who you are
7.19.2016
God wants us to be happy. He wants us to keep holding on and just refuse to die. Don't listen to devils' spells. Look deeper. Look beneath. The marks on your face will go away. Remember what God said somewhere in the Holy Bible: "The sun will not harm you by day, and the moon doesn't harm you by night." Try to love your face and body the way it is, so you can take care of it and make it better.
No one dies anymore. My dad told me (or someone else with strong faith), "God defeated death on the cross." He died so no one else had to. Now He changes us. When you get to heaven, and this is heaven, you start to become a faerie, elf, angel, sprite, or archangel. You don't have to, but you'll want to. God makes us immortal. He changes us, gives us super-strength and super-speed. He makes us immortal.
If you pray to live forever, you will. If you know someone is blind, obey the Bible and try to heal them. Faerie sparks? Prayer. Healing touch (not reiki. Reiki is hindu.). I'm interpreting Mathew 9:29..all God needs to do to heal blind eyes is touch them. Whenever I start to lose my sight, I put my hands on my eyes, close my eyes, blink, and God restores my sight. Its just blurry vision. He puts His power in my hands, because He wants everyone to see perfectly. Sometimes, its a vision of black in your eyes, or a vision or white. If your eyes really don't work, you see white, and that seems scary.
Pray with your eyes closed in the silence. Silent meditation in the darkness helps you find God. Cannabis helps you find God too. Its the second coming, and God never gives up on anyone, so you'll be alright.
I'm autistic, medium functioning. I see it as a gift. It makes me a genius, and being a genius makes you autistic. I am a trillion one hundred fifty seven years old. I probably started out as low functioning, and I'm jealous of my younger self. It makes you shy, and stops you from talking to evil people. It makes you feel awkward, and you scream the pain away. Singing and playing instruments helps. Martial arts helps. Go outside in the dark, look up at the stars, and just scream. Scream and sing with your halo. Its okay not to be okay.
I miss my twin, my soulmate. Missing him makes me scream and hit my head and makes me weary. Elvish heartbreak comes and go. Sometimes it makes me feel high. That's what its for. It stops you from feeling empty and numb without him. But I need him so much.
Take the time to know yourself. Take the time to grow. Take the time to feel pain. It makes you feel alive. Meditate on your pain. Meditate on your yearning, your love, your forever. Don't be ashamed of your past, your scars, your moles, the parts of your body you hate. Lift weights. Do body-weight exercises. God will put invisble weights on your wrists and ankles. Run and walk fast and fly and do gymnastics or whatever sport you choose. There's an inner athlete in everyone.
That's all for today,
Rebecca :) <3
No one dies anymore. My dad told me (or someone else with strong faith), "God defeated death on the cross." He died so no one else had to. Now He changes us. When you get to heaven, and this is heaven, you start to become a faerie, elf, angel, sprite, or archangel. You don't have to, but you'll want to. God makes us immortal. He changes us, gives us super-strength and super-speed. He makes us immortal.
If you pray to live forever, you will. If you know someone is blind, obey the Bible and try to heal them. Faerie sparks? Prayer. Healing touch (not reiki. Reiki is hindu.). I'm interpreting Mathew 9:29..all God needs to do to heal blind eyes is touch them. Whenever I start to lose my sight, I put my hands on my eyes, close my eyes, blink, and God restores my sight. Its just blurry vision. He puts His power in my hands, because He wants everyone to see perfectly. Sometimes, its a vision of black in your eyes, or a vision or white. If your eyes really don't work, you see white, and that seems scary.
Pray with your eyes closed in the silence. Silent meditation in the darkness helps you find God. Cannabis helps you find God too. Its the second coming, and God never gives up on anyone, so you'll be alright.
I'm autistic, medium functioning. I see it as a gift. It makes me a genius, and being a genius makes you autistic. I am a trillion one hundred fifty seven years old. I probably started out as low functioning, and I'm jealous of my younger self. It makes you shy, and stops you from talking to evil people. It makes you feel awkward, and you scream the pain away. Singing and playing instruments helps. Martial arts helps. Go outside in the dark, look up at the stars, and just scream. Scream and sing with your halo. Its okay not to be okay.
I miss my twin, my soulmate. Missing him makes me scream and hit my head and makes me weary. Elvish heartbreak comes and go. Sometimes it makes me feel high. That's what its for. It stops you from feeling empty and numb without him. But I need him so much.
Take the time to know yourself. Take the time to grow. Take the time to feel pain. It makes you feel alive. Meditate on your pain. Meditate on your yearning, your love, your forever. Don't be ashamed of your past, your scars, your moles, the parts of your body you hate. Lift weights. Do body-weight exercises. God will put invisble weights on your wrists and ankles. Run and walk fast and fly and do gymnastics or whatever sport you choose. There's an inner athlete in everyone.
That's all for today,
Rebecca :) <3
Wednesday, July 6, 2016
7.6.2016
So numb. Went on a run. Hate myself right now. Missing Stephen. So lonely. Need friends. Cant wait to go to my real house not this apartment.Miss my family.
Monday, July 4, 2016
Swan dive. Dove. Phoenix. Immortal light, immortal child. Tall kid. Freedom for all.
Love for all, beauty divine. Finally back to heaven after a long journey of forgetting who I am and starting over. Can't wait to journey onwards. Went on a run to the wilderness today. Might have fought an invisible cheatah today. Fought a tiger yesterday. Praying their rage will fade and they'll be sacred like they're supposed to be. Saw a demon yesterday. It might have posessed the tiger.
Met two of my brothers. Finally free.
Love for all, beauty divine. Finally back to heaven after a long journey of forgetting who I am and starting over. Can't wait to journey onwards. Went on a run to the wilderness today. Might have fought an invisible cheatah today. Fought a tiger yesterday. Praying their rage will fade and they'll be sacred like they're supposed to be. Saw a demon yesterday. It might have posessed the tiger.
Met two of my brothers. Finally free.
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